Miscellan-y

A happy ocean pic to break up all the darkness of Fall/Winter.
Speaking of season related darkness… BWHA HA HA
My son was loading the dishwasher earlier today and when he was done he looked down at his shirt and said, “Mum, I think Pikachu had an accident!” LOL
Yes, that’s a hairball. And it is my daughter’s. She was cleaning out her brush the other day, wadded it up, & as just as she was about to throw the hairball away, I asked her if I could have it. You should have seen the look on her face. But I had a reason for wanting it. I was wanting to pull a joke on my Littles. My plan was to start coughing with this hairball hidden in my hand, and then at the climax of the coughing fit, I was going to toss the hairball on the table– making it look like I legit coughed up a hairball.
I waited until it was mealtime. It.was.classic.
They TOTALLY fell for it!!! And it was amazing.
Another GREEN pic amidst the gray outdoors.
PREACH
Not sure I could remember to do all this every-single-day. But it’s def a cool reminder to do self-care & what it could look like for you. SO important.
WORD
Thanksgiving is less than a week away!!!
Let’s give thanks DAILY tho for all the blessings God grants us!
Speak truth. Confess it. Pray it out loud over your life.
I think this may be the missing key to successful Christian living in many people’s lives. We believe the Scripture. We hope in it & pray about it & think about it & memorize it. But how many of us actually SPEAK it out loud with our mouths?
There’s so much power in the spoken word of Scripture!
A continued thought on SPEAKING truth over our lives… let us SPEAK LIFE!

The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit. ~Proverbs 18:21

One final green. 🙂

This is How I Fight My Battles

“Surrounded (Fight My Battles)”
(“To The One” version)

There’s a table that You’ve prepared for me
In the presence of my enemies
It’s Your body and Your blood You shed for me
This is how I fight my battles

There’s a table that You’ve prepared for me
In the presence of my enemies
It’s Your body and Your blood You shed for me
This is how I fight my battles

I believe You’ve overcome
And I will lift my song of praise for what You’ve done

This is how I fight my battles
This is how I fight my battles
This is how I fight my battles
This is how

In the valley I know that you’re with me
Surely Your goodness and your mercy follows me
My weapons are praise and thanksgiving
This is how I fight my battles

I believe You’ve overcome
And I will lift my song of praise for what You’ve done

This is how I fight my battles
This is how I fight my battles
This is how I fight my battles
This is how

This is how I fight my battles
This is how I fight my battles
This is how I fight my battles
This is how

It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You

This is how I fight my battles
This is how I fight my battles
This is how I fight my battles
This is how I fight my battles
This is how I fight my battles
This is how I fight my battles
This is how I fight my battles
This is how

It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You
It may look like I’m surrounded but I’m surrounded by You

My weapons are praise and thanksgiving.”

Our weapons are also God’s Word, prayer, community with other believers, music…

Even the weakest Christian is stronger than Satan. We have the victory!

Scripture says Satan prowls about the earth like a roaring lion (1 Peter 5:8). Get that: he’s not really a powerful, roaring lion– he’s LIKE a lion. De-fanged. De-clawed. On a leash. Defeated.

At the name of Jesus, Satan & his demons will flee. Even if you can’t think of anything to pray, just say the name “Jesus!”. It’s the most powerful one-word prayer ever!

Walk in Love today, my friends. And Rejoice Always.

Where would I be without God?

Love Love Love this song. Dancing to it this morning on this frosty fall day. After yesterday’s blog post about Following God, this song has become a follow-up anthem running through my mind.


“Me Without You”– TobyMac

Raindrops rollin’ off my brim
Streetlights got the pavement glistenin’
Touchdown, I fall into Your arms
Right where I belong
Your everlasting arms

And where would I be
Without You…

I’d be packin’ my bags when I need to stay
I’d be chasin’ every breeze that blows my way
I’d be building my kingdom just to watch it fade away
It’s true
That’s me without You-ou-ou-ou-ou-ou
That’s me without You-ou-ou-ou-ou-ou
That’s me without You-ou-ou-ou-ou-ou
Don’t know where I’d be without You
(Wooooah, without you)

Flashback, step into the scene
There’s You and there’s a very different me
Touchdown, You had me at believe
You had me at believe, You did

And where would I be
Without You, without You…

I’d be packin’ my bags when I need to stay
I’d be chasin’ every breeze that blows my way
I’d be building my kingdom just to watch it fade away
It’s true
That’s me without You-ou-ou-ou-ou-ou
That’s me without You-ou-ou-ou-ou-ou
That’s me without You-ou-ou-ou-ou-ou
Don’t know where I’d be without You

(Where would I be…)

[WHISPERING]
(I was so deep,
So incomplete
Til’ You rescued me
Yeah, You rescued me)

You rescued me
You are mine, I am Yours
You rescued me
And I am Yours forever
You saved me, remade me

And where would I be

I’d be packin’ my bags when I need to stay
I’d be chasin’ every breeze that blows my way
I’d be building my kingdom just to watch it fade away
It’s true
That I’d be packin’ my bags when I need to stay
I’d be chasin’ every breeze that blows my way
I’d be building my kingdom just to watch it fade away
So true
That’s me without You-ou-ou-ou-ou-ou
That’s me without You-ou-ou-ou-ou-ou
That’s me without You-ou-ou-ou-ou-ou
Don’t know where I’d be without You

That’s me without You-ou-ou-ou
That’s me without You-ou-ou-ou
That’s me without You-ou-ou-ou
Don’t know where I’d be without You

#WalkInLove #RejoiceAlways

I Will Follow

I WILL FOLLOW: by Christ Tomlin

Where you go, I’ll go
Where you stay, I’ll stay
When you move, I’ll move
I will follow

All your ways are good
All your ways are sure
I will trust in you alone

Higher than my side
High above my life
I will trust in you alone

Where you go, I’ll go
Where you stay, I’ll stay
When you move, I’ll move
I will follow you
Who you love, I’ll love
How you serve, I’ll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow you
I will follow you

Light unto the world
Light unto my life
I will live for you alone
You’re the one I seek
Knowing I will find
All I need in you alone
In you alone

Where you go, I’ll go
Where you stay, I’ll stay
When you move, I’ll move
I will follow you
Who you love, I’ll love
How you serve, I’ll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow you
I will follow you

In you, there’s life everlasting
In you, there’s freedom for my soul
In you, there’s joy, unending joy
And I will follow

Where you go, I’ll go
Where you stay, I’ll stay
When you move, I’ll move
I will follow
Who you love, I’ll love
How you serve, I’ll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow

Where you go, I’ll go
Where you stay, I’ll stay
When you move, I’ll move
I will follow you
Who you love, I’ll love
How you serve, I’ll serve
If this life I lose, I will follow you

I will follow you
I will follow you
I will follow you


While I listened to this song, I caught a vision of the Israelites wandering in the desert for 40 years. They went, they stayed, & they moved based on God’s movements. By day, He guided them by a pillar of cloud. By night, He guided by a pillar of fire. (See Exodus 13:21-22.) The Israelites had a VISUAL leading of God, like an actual real thing to see with their very own eyes.

Sometimes I think it’d be great to see God’s direction so clearly like this for myself. I mean how cool would it be to physically see God’s movement & direction & calling on the earth?

But hey, He DOES show us. Maybe not in such a flashy style. But He def leads & speaks to us clearly.

*Through His word. When we read it & spend quiet, contemplative time thinking about it & how it can be applied & believing it.
*Through music. It brings images & visions to mind, stirs within us feelings, helps us memorize God’s word. It moves & encourages & fills us with hope & peace.
*Through meditation. We sit quietly thinking on God’s word & listening for Him.
*Through journaling. Written prayers & pouring out our hearts to Him.
*Through sermons, podcasts, & Christian speakers. They have an amazing way of helping us make sense of God’s word.
*Through fellowship & sharing life with one another. The conversations that bring sweet encouragement & perspective (& sometimes loving rebuke).
*Through nature. It brings inner tranquility & rejuvenation.
*Through Christian literature & devotionals. They help give us clarity & perspective & bring truths to our remembrance.
*Through coincidences. Things/situations that only God could have orchestrated.

God’s leading is all around us when we have spiritual eyes & ears that are open to His prompts. Are we looking? Are we listening? And will we follow?


Following is hard– I’m not gonna lie. Maybe because as an American we are proud of our *independence* & we take that into all areas of life? Maybe some of us are just natural born leaders & we want to be out front? Maybe it’s our sin nature that wants to shake it’s little fist at God & do things “our” way? Perhaps it’s a combo of all three. But whatever the cause, following can be hard.

It means we have to put our wants/desires to the side.
It means we have to put our complete trust in the leader.
It means that we’re not “in the know” concerning all the nitty-gritty details.
It means we have to have faith that the leader not only knows what they’re doing– but that they’re capable of doing it.
It means we’re not in control.
It means surrender.

These are NOT easy things to do.

But our God is not like man. He’s not fallible. He doesn’t make mistakes. His ways are only good. He knows all things. He holds all things. He IS capable. He IS trustworthy 100%.

And He loves us– oh, how He loves us (John 3:16).
He has plans to prosper us, not to harm us. Plans to give us a hope & a future (Jeremiah 29:11).
His way is perfect & His word is flawless (Psalm 18:30).
He abounds in goodness & truth (Exodus 34:6).

Follow Him.
Go where He goes.
Stay where He stays.
Move where He moves.
Serve where He serves.
Love who He loves.

In you, there’s life everlasting
In you, there’s freedom for my soul
In you, there’s joy, unending joy
And I will follow

#WalkInLove #RejoiceAlways

Self-Care

This is probably one of those topics you’ll hear me coming back to again and again here on the blog. It just cannot be stated enough how important it is. Self-care brings sanity, calm nerves, hope, & happiness.

I SO freakin’ wish someone would have pulled me aside as a young mom and explained just WHY self-care was SO ridiculously important. It would have made me a better wife, mom, friend. I would have just been a HAPPIER person.

Along the mothering way, I got it in my head that it wasn’t ok for me to make time for me.

Let me tell you where that (dumb) idea came from…

Several years back when I had five little ones under the age of 6 (yes, you read that right), let’s just say I was SWIMMING in exhaustion & overwhelm. I had very little support. My parents lived in another state, I was relatively new to the community, my hubby was trying to establish his business & so was gone a lot, all my friends/family were either busy with their own babies or were working. I felt so alone.

So I tried reaching out to a Christian lady from my church for help. All I needed/wanted was an afternoon off: a couple hours to regroup, take a nap, maybe get some backed-up house work accomplished. She had older kids & so I thought maybe she’d have some availability.

My request didn’t go over well. She turned on me… and I’ll never forget that look in her eye or the biting tone in which she spoke to me…

She said… “YOU got yourself into this mess…
this is YOUR problem… I will NOT help you…”

I was beside myself. It felt like someone sucker punched me in the gut & knocked all the air outta me.

If she’s thinking this… then… are other people thinking this, too?
Was there really NO ONE who’d be willing to help me?
Were my children & I really THAT much of a burden to others?

To say I was crushed was an understatement. Something inside me shriveled up & almost died that day. In my immaturity I lost hope of every asking for help in the future.

From that day forth, I was set on a mission to be absolutely independence.

I don’t need anyone anyway.
You’re right– I DID get myself into this “mess”.
I’ll carve my path out myself.
I don’t need sitters.
I don’t need help, esp if it’s going to be given begrudgingly.
I don’t need time off.
I don’t need breaks.
They’re MY “problem” & I’ll figure out how to solve things on my own.

Every time I felt like I couldn’t take any more, I’d simply need to replay this lady’s statements in my mind & I’d be able gird up my loins for more care-taking.

Fast forward four years… when I quite literally had a break. My body started shutting down with adrenal fatigue, anxiety, food sensitivities, digestive upset, & panic attacks.

So started my path to self-care.

So started my *having* to ask for help.

So started the hard task of *accepting* help.

“The Lord is Shepherd, I shall not want. He MAKES me lie down in green pastures. He LEADS me beside quiet waters. He RESTORES my soul. He GUIDES me in the paths of righteousness for His name’s sake. ~Ps. 23:1-3

If you don’t take a rest, God may very well MAKE you take a rest as He did with me.

Let’s hope it doesn’t come down to something debilitating before you take a needed Sabbath.

Now that I’m older/wiser, I have completely forgiven this woman. As the years have passed, I have witnessed her go through crazy tumultuous family ordeals. Perhaps I caught her on a very bad day.

And NO… one woman’s opinion does NOT speak for everyone else!
And NO… my children & I are NOT a burden to society! (And neither are you & your children!!!)

A HUGE part of my healing has been SELF-CARE.

I’d done SO much caring for other’s that I’d nearly forgotten to take care of me!

How can I give from an empty cup?

Why do airlines say adults/caretakers get the oxygen FIRST before children?

“Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you & was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself, for God bought you with a high price. So you must honor God with your body. ~1 Cor. 6:19-20

Take care of your temple, ladies!!!

If you’re like me a few years back, you may be thinking:
*I don’t know where to start.
*I don’t know what self-care looks like for me.

First of all, go back to your childhood. Children are FANTASTIC at self-care techniques & doing things to soothe themselves and make them happy. Start there.

*Did you spend a lot of time outdoors in nature?
*Did you like hot baths or showers (or swimming in pools/lakes/rivers)?
*Did you paint or write?
*Did you have a fuzzy blanket to snuggle to?
*Did you like warm milk or reading books before bed?
*Did you love long car rides & travel?
*Did you like to ride your bike for hours?
*Did you have a hobby?
*Were you one of the unique kids that actually liked sleep & naps?
*Did you like to play sports?
*Did you like going to your room & being in solitude?
*Did you blast your music or sing at the top of your lungs?
*Did you like cooking with your parents or grandma?
*Did you like gardening or landscaping?

What did you do as a child that you could get lost in?
What soothed you?
What calmed you after a long day?
What things made you happy?

Guess what? Just because you’re an adult doesn’t mean you can’t do these same “kids activities” to bring you peace & pleasure. If it makes you feel any better, I have a special fuzzy blanket that I cuddle up to each night because I love the way it feels on my skin. So soft. Relaxes me instantly. If you had a cuddle blanket as a kid, go ahead & get you an adult version. No one will know… and honestly, no one will care. Do what you need to do for you.

Self-care can also come from another angle. Take a look at these other forms:

*If it feels wrong, don’t do it.
*Say “exactly” what you mean.
*Don’t be a people-pleaser.
*Trust your instincts.
*Never speak bad about yourself.
*Never give up on your dreams.
*Don’t be afraid to say “no”.
*Don’t be afraid to say “yes”.
*Be kind to yourself.
*Let go of what you cannot control.
*Stay away from drama & negativity as much as possible.
(This was from a meme I found online forever ago… don’t know who came up with it– but I give them credit.)

Other forms of self-care could be:
*eat life-giving/healthy foods
*don’t eat lifeless/unhealthy foods
*move your body daily with loving movement
*take a shower each day
*brush & floss regularly
*get pedicures/manicures
*get a massage
*see your doctor(s) regularly
*take your vitamins
*wear clothes that flatter you & make you look/feel great
*tame the clutter in your house

Self-care can come in so many different shapes & sizes.
It does not have to take hours & hours out of your day.
It does not have to cost a fortune.
And there ARE people that will help you get that time off!

It will make you a better person… promise you!

So what will you do today to fill your cup?
What things can you participate in that bring a smile to your face?

**Here’s an excellent template if you need help brainstorming:

#liveawakened #livefullyalive #lifeabundant #selfcare #yourenotbeingselfish #rejoice #takecareofyourtemple #SHINE

New Directions

For awhile now, I’ve been undecided just exactly what direction to take with this Momma Duck blog (& the Facebook page). There was always lots of ideas rattling around but no single one route that I felt should be taken. Couldn’t get focus. Def liked the “live awakened” & “live fully alive” thing. But there was still something missing.

Well this last week rocked me because I FINALLY came to grips with something that’s been going on in my life. It’s something that I’ve been fighting, resisting, ignoring, stuffing down, wishing away.

In acceptance of this “thing”, I have also found the future theme for Momma Duck. It all clicks now!

Let me first start with sharing the “thing” that I struggled to come to terms with:


I am a Christian Emapth

There. I said it. Whew!
But I’m not ashamed.
And I’m done living in the shadows fearing people will think I’m off my spiritual rocker.

You know what, though…
I know there are MANY other Christian Empaths out there in the world, too!
*highly sensitive, intuitive, big-time feelers…
*yet overwhelmed, emotional, discouraged, alone, lost, looking for answers, & possibly losing hope.

I run into these people all.the.time.

What is an Empath, you may be wondering?
Click on this link to find out: https://drjudithorloff.com/quizzes/empath-self-assessment-test/.
Does any of this resonate with you?

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When I look back over my past/childhood & the things that happened to me/how I responded, it is abundantly clear that I have been an Empath all along (just didn’t know there was a name for it!).

As I have aged, my Empath capabilities have gotten so much stronger!

Problem is, I don’t quite know (yet) how to fully control it or use it. (I’m learning though!) I have this tendency to not only live life on full-blast but to also absorb all that’s going on around me.
And it’s exhausting.

For years, I have been fighting God about being an Empath. Questioning Him as to why He made me so sensitive, intuitive, aware. Asking Him to change me/take the Empath part away. Thinking He made a mistake. Feeling sorry for myself. Feeling so alone, like I was some kind of a weirdo because I reacted to/felt so different from everyone else about life.

Can’t I just be normal? Can’t my “new creation in Christ” be sans Empath?

Well I’ve never really seen it as a blessing… until now. It’s always felt more like a curse because I’ve never been taught what it was or how to live with it. Much of my life has been surviving in the realm of overwhelm–> Empath 101 is not the kind of teaching you got back in the 80’s/90’s, nor a course you can readily take at church!

It doesn’t help that in Christian circles you bring up the word “Empath” and people freak out thinking you’ve gone all New Age-y/woo-woo on them… that you’ve gone to the “dark side” or something.

But I truly, honestly, fully believe that Christians can be Empaths.

Christians (I believe) are just too scared to “go there”. They see non-believing/worldly people talking all things “Empath” & they make the broad general assumption that everything they come up with is bad/wrong/ungodly/evil. That’s just not true.

Why should non-Christians be the only one’s “going there” & talking about being an Empath? Why does the realm of darkness get to take ownership when Empaths can be both non-believers & believers alike?

Is there something sinful with having high levels of empathy?
Is there something wrong/evil about being highly sensitive, intuitive, & to feel/sense things on an incredibly deep level?

Ignoring the word “Empath” & what all it entails leaves out an entire slice of the Christian population. Those of us within this “slice” can be left wondering what’s wrong with us. We can be left feeling like we’re losing our sanity & health because of the emotional/sensory overwhelm we constantly feel. We can get totally discouraged in our walk with Christ because life for us isn’t “abundant” like other Christian’s— rather, our lives is more like daily exhaustion.

Many of us end up going to the Dr for mysterious illnesses (even though labs/tests come back negative), or for anxiety & depression symptoms– then we end up taking meds to numb it out. Or we sit through months of counseling with no relief. Or we suffer alone, potentially destroying the loving relationships around us. Or we faint with fear thinking we’re being tormented by demons. Or worse yet, we end up turning to alcohol, drugs, over-spending, over-eating, etc. to try & shut it all off. In extreme cases, there can even be full-blown addictions, mental health diagnoses, suicidal ideation, etc.

Oh yeah, and Christians may very well (& unfortunately) turn to sin if it gives any sort of temporary relief from the sensory blast that comes with being an Empath–> if they don’t know what it is, what’s really going on with them, how to control/use it. And especially if they can’t/don’t understand & see it as a blessing.

They turn to the church for help but are given the rote lines of: you “just need Jesus” OR you “just don’t have enough faith/trust in God”.
But these Empath’s read their Bible, they pray, they do all the “Christian things” & yet they’re still SO overwhelmed by life constantly streaming in at them from all directions!

Dude, this just shouldn’t be!!! Not for the Believer!!!

*Let’s “go there” as Christians.
*Let’s accept the boundless wisdom from God that clearly draws lines between light & darkness.
*Let’s not let the spirit of fear (which comes from Satan) interfere with our personal healing, our spiritual maturation, & our calling to be missional/lead others to Christ.
*Let’s look at being an Empath through the lens of God & His Word, to bring it out of the realm of darkness & into the light!
*Let’s learn how being an Empath can actually be a blessing.
*Let’s learn to be the hands & feet of Christ, showing His compassion & empathy to a hurting world.
*Let’s learn life skills to counter the burnout & overwhelm.
*Let’s learn how we too, as Empath’s, can live an abundant Christian life!

If you’re a Christian Empath, would you, my friend, walk alongside me on this journey?
If you’re struggling with overwhelm, hang in there… there’s *always* hope in Christ!
If you’re way ahead on this road, would you please share your wisdom?

Let’s learn how to live life & live it abundantly as Christian Empath’s!

#liveawakened #livefullyalive #christianempath #letsgothere #abundantlife #john1010 #MommaDuck #newdirection #freedomfromfear #liveinthelight

Managing Life’s Transitions

This is the first time I’ve ever really stopped to notice this, but:
summer is THE time for transitions and life changes.

I suppose it’s just a good time in general for people because most everyone is on school break, they are available, & are taking vacas, etc. Plus, if there are big moves and changes, it’s nice to take care of it all while the weather’s nice & before school starts back up and cold weather comes.

This summer in particular has been a very crazy wild season of transition for my family and I. Things such as:

*both my father & mother-in-law retiring– with that comes parental presence & availability & help that I’ve never before had (PTL!).
*my oldest daughter has her first boyfriend– new territory for everyone.
*my oldest is now learning to drive– anxiety x10.
*very good friends of ours moved to a lovely new home– BUT it’s on the other side of town/no longer just a couple blocks away/within biking & walking distance.
*a fantastic neighbor of mine & her son (which is one of my son’s best friend’s) is moving out of town– that brings loss & grief & sadness.
*a “difficult” neighbor, who’d abandoned their house for over a year, surprised us with moving back in– that brings frustration.
*our church, which was newly planted in Jan. ’18, got adopted into another church– that brings with it a weird mix of loss and curiosity + change.
*both my husband & I transitioned into “middle age” when we turned 40 in June– said goodbye to our 20’s & 30’s.
*I just noticed our sugar maple has started to change its leaves’ colors. That means Fall is just around the corner and my beloved Summer is coming to an end soon:

I watch other people and they they seem to accept change and transition without much of a hitch. But for me, dude… change is HARD. I really have to work through it, feel through it, journal through it, pray through it. Change is oftentimes overwhelming and frustrating, esp if it’s something completely out of my hands (like friends moving or my church merging). It often brings with it ugly tears & long bouts of being alone to process. Even GOOD change can be difficult for me to wade through. It’s just me, just the way I’m made, it just takes time.

But God… though my world changes and swirls around me… He doesn’t change. These Scriptures have been my anchor this summer:

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today, yes and forever.
~Hebrews 13:8

For I, the Lord, do not change…
~Malachi 3:6

Every good thing bestowed and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights, with whom there is no variation, or shifting shadow.
~James 1:17

The grass withers, the flower fades, but the word of our God stands forever.
~Isaiah 40:8

Of old Thou didst found the earth; and the heavens are the work of Thy hands. Even they will perish, but Thou dost endure; and all of them will wear out like a garment; like clothing Thou wilt change them, and they will be changed. But Thou art the same, and Thy years will not come to an end.
~Psalm 102:25-27

Forever, O Lord, Thy word is settled in heaven. Thy faithfulness continues throughout all generations…
~Psalm 119:89-90a

The counsel of the Lord stands forever, the plans of His heart from generation to generation.
~Psalm 33:11

God & His word will never change. We can bank on that, we can rest in that, we can give thanks for that. We can relax and trust that He’s got good plans because He’s a good God and a good Father.

God and His word are our anchor through life’s changes!

Live awakened. Live fully alive. REJOICE.